Bored Life

awoken winter

2010-11-02T00:27:00.003+08:00

its november,

winter is awoken in her pace,

i hope this last for eternity,

replacing the summer in me.

change is needed,

to keep this circulation,

as a base unit of life,

of my passionated soul.

december,

52th week of the year,

winter is opening her eyes,

will the flakes...reach her?

Sovereign Of The Undead

2010-07-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

Thousands of body

Thousands of soul

Thousands of will

Thousands of might

Thousands of combination

Thousands of perishment

Thousands of hope

Thousands of disappointment

Bodies that were deserted

Souls that were banished

Wills that were sealed

Mights that were devoured

Combination is the mystery of life

Perish is the antidote of life

hope is the essence of life

disappointment is the empowerment of life

where is my hope?

2010-07-05T22:42:00.001+08:00

human tends to regret at the very moment

when their wings were snapped

when they're immobilized

when they're helpless about themselves

when that moment comes

u will start to give a thought about yourself

"where is my hope?"

Would You Stay If I Asked You To..

2010-02-02T17:13:00.006+08:00

Would I be the one?
You said,it will never change,
Stay in my heart,even..
If I'm just the sub.

I have longed,
Asked Myself,
You are whom,
To me for all these long.
?

0%

2010-01-29T19:40:00.002+08:00

0+2 = 2

2-2 = 0

gave 2 to the 0,
0 rejected 2,
its neutral,

0 x 1 = 0

1 x 0 = 0

whatever a null multiplied,
will get a same result,
thats 0.

that theory has been proven,
and will be always right,
will I,
be the one who change the theory?

No,
therefore,i will change,
its value..
but how?
plus,minus?
which?
will the signs wait for me
to choose
what will i use..

0%

last memento

2010-01-29T19:12:00.002+08:00

Thursday, November 26, 2009

愛しています

Do you ever think about mii..
Do you ever cry urself 2 sleep..
In da middle of nitez when you awake..
Are u calling out my name..

- forget him
-forget his name
-forget his face
-forget his kiss
-his warm embrace
-forget da love u once knew
-remember he has someone new
-forget him when they played ur song
-remember when u cry all nite long
-forget how close you two were
-remember he has chosen her
-forget u memorized his walk
-forget da way he used to talk
-forget da thing he used to say
-remember he has gone away
-forget his laugh
-forget his grin
-forget da dimples in his chin
-forget da way he held you tight
-remember he’s with her tonight
-forget da time tat when so fast
-forget da love that moved it’s pass
-forget he said he’d leave you never
-remember that he’s gone forever..

It’s only mii missing you..
I love you..

Posted by 断翅の天使失去自由永困人间 at 1:13 AM
______________________________________
bonds between them..just stopped at this moment,
it breaks,and u 2 just said sayonara..
is it so fragile nowadays?
it has been proven..
been thinking these few days,
"its not worth"
swirling in my mind,turn turn turn,
its so cool...
been replied,
"you're angry or something"..
you cant see the mood accurately
without face to face,
does appearance speaks for it all?
damn..

Clarified

2010-01-24T20:37:00.002+08:00

nothing much i can do about it,
other than comforting,
what had happened is the past,
as time goes on.

bad ones will be washed,
by the sea,
good ones will be carved,
on the rock.

nothing much i can do about it,
other than thinking,
you should get a better one,
its my thought.

looking at the window,
wiping tears alone,
once again hiding,
stating that you was fine.

your lies and play,
was easy to see through it,
your tears signified everything,
clarified.

As I promised

2010-01-23T18:57:00.003+08:00

Doubts that had been revealed,
from a fair lady,
had taken the place in my mind,
"its not worth".

Doubts that had been told,
from an understanding lady,
had stunned my mind,
"you're magnanimous".

three weeks has passed,
oneself has became lucid,
opaque has not set a step here,
those memories were opaquely in my mind.

happiness applies for a moment,
because we can let it down,
sadness applies for an eternity,
because we can't let it down.

Say it out,
And it will be true,
there's nothing impossible,
cause i will make it possible,
For you.

As I promised

as long you're happy

2010-01-11T22:18:00.006+08:00

whenever there's a figure
passing by,
the person
is all i can think.

turning back
although there's time,
swollen heart
is all i can feel.

achieving achievements
sabotaged by myself,
adrenaline pumping
is all i can not stop.

as long you're happy
it's ok
as long you're happy
do not stop
as long you're happy
so am i
as long you're happy..
is all i can say..

forecasted wind?

2010-01-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

each single time
i saw u
hanging by the wall
the expression on your face
reminds me of what u said

"i am happy with where am i now"
-"u're not"
"i am stressed"
-"u think too much"
"u dont know what i felt"
-"i did,i gone through what u going through now"

either the wave changes..

2010-01-05T18:51:00.002+08:00

it made me think seriously
either go on with the wave,
making it go higher
or switching to the wind
making it go faster
i need wings
i need motions
i need it
will i go on a road that is already set as the course?
or going on with the road that i am exploring?
______________________________________
when i said,
we will wait for you,
it means i will wait for you.
after all,
we are still friends
i don't expect any expectation.
when u said,
come join me,
i will fasten my feet
sprinting it all along
filling with all my hope,
one of my two hopes
that's you.

Life is meaningless without A DREAM

2010-01-05T14:30:00.004+08:00

it was a coincidence? or it was destiny?
it was going all like i wanted..
just..
there was no sacrifices made.
stating bio was not important
let go of bio
annoyed by another human cause of bio
just to hover around the sky
since small
i wanted to reach the sky
i left the car
just to reach the staircase
to the sky..

1st time

2010-01-02T04:35:00.003+08:00

1st time, i have been working so hard on it,just for her to smile
1st time, i made someone happy before although its just a moment
1st time, i traveled quite a distance just to send my regards
1st time, i felt my life go on easier,dashing with colors

there goes my 1st time,the one who awoken me
giving all the best i can do to u is all i do
even i am not in your sight
guarding you a bit by a bit till you know my presence

how much time will i have to pay just to buy one chance
maybe i did not pay for it at all
it all just stopped there frozen
________________________________________________
its ok as long you are happy
fulfilling my promise towards you
maybe you forgotten
in the end,i glad you are happy

those lies i made to you
was meant to bring you bliss

everything is going back where they are
the promise i made towards myself
will never fade
that is
cherishing you

tagged

2009-12-18T15:03:00.005+08:00

1.Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smoke?
Yeah
2.How about drinking

Yeah

3. Do you like someone you can't have?

Going to know soon

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?

depends

5. What's your favourite sport?
basketball

6. Its Saturday night, and you're home alone... what do you do?

make some noise

7. Do you like roller coasters?

cant count how many years since i been on a roller coaster..

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?

when everything is right

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?

none

10. What are you doing this weekend?

TS gathering wif primary school frens

11. What is your favourite restaurant?

none

12. Have you ever hugged someone?
nope

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
wont happen

14. Do you like anyone right now?
ya

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
voice/attitude

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?
mountains

17. What kind of phone do you have?

takda..

18. Computer or Laptop?

desktop

19. Jeans or Sweats?
pants =D

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?
2008

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
16

22. What should you be doing right now?
typing at msn

23. What is your favourite TV show?

any that is nice to watch

24. What's been your last purchase?
an rm40.90 album and envelopes from my 1st payment?

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?

GTH..

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
yeah

27. What do you do when you're at home?

everything

28. What is your favourite subject?

add math+physic = pilot FTW my dream

29. What's the best thing that's ever happened to you?

when everything go on

30. How do you think the people around you feel around you?

"he sux"

31. The character for you for yourself is...
hot headed

32. On the contrary, the thing you hate about yourself is...

stage fright

33. The most ideal person you want to be is...

that can get along with

34. The person who tagged you…

chou siewmai

35. What relationship of you with him/her?
Online friend.

36. Your 5 impressions towards him/her?

nerd lame crazy understanding friendly

37. The most memorable thing she/he had done for you?

lending char for my 1st zkjq experience FTW

38. The most memorable thing that he/she had said to you?

too many jor..lame stuffs

39. If he/she becomes your lover, you will....

wat she expect?

40. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...

doing wat she's been expecting o.o

41. If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on..

lameness/nerdiness

42. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...

well..i pissed her off like i always do to everyone? o.o

43. The most desirable thing for you to do to him/her is...

waiting for her to spon zk helm..scar would be better

44. The overall impression of he/her is...
crazy

45. Who you're gonna tag?

Beginning Of Everthing..

2009-11-30T02:59:00.003+08:00

She Told Me..We Do Change..At The Same Time She Said..You're Better Than Him..Is This Beginning Or Am I Dreaming?..I Waited For Days..To Get Connected With Her..At Last It Happened..A Bit By A Bit..Every Piece Will Get Ahold Of Itself..Jointed To Show Its Form..
Opening A Way..A Staircase Or..A Way Downtown..Where Everything Was Defilled..With Hate And Sorrowfulness..I Will Take A Try..I Dont Know Whether Am I Living In A Fantasy Of My Own..Trying Everytime..

Its You

2009-11-24T02:46:00.002+08:00

He told me,the longer you hold to it.the longer it will last..
How long did i need to hold onto it?
Long enough to accomplishes something in my mind right now?
Maybe..
He said,go for it..if you really determined that's your target..
You will achieve it..
I endured in every wave she gave..
looking forward for everything she demands and poured..
Just for the sake for clearing my sins i make towards her..
Incurable wounds will last forever..
There's nothing more that could be done..
Except lightening her burdens..
By making the existence of bliss and harmonious passions wave through her lips..
This is the first time i felt such guilty to a person..
Although there was more filthy things i done towards others..
The person,who never regretted
Has regretted
Just for her..
Its You

More Than Words..

2009-10-17T20:10:00.002+08:00

Is It Really More Than Words?

So I Did..

I Did Lived In My Own World..

Failed Concerning Other People..

Once,Twice,Thrice..

Its Really Hard To Get Out Of..

My Own Blurry Atmosphere..

It Is Just A Few Words And Sentences..

But Why I Cant Recite It Out?

Lack Of Courage?

Its Not An Option For Excuses..

Why?Why Must You Do It Again?

Confidence?Are You Lack Of It?

Lies..Lies For Fools..

Worries?I Am Bullshitting..

You Wont Know If You Didnt Try It..

Next Time I Will Face It..

Chances Is Fading Away..But Why?

Grab It..Even The Ending Is Bad..

You Wouldnt Want To Waste A Try..

Why?..You're Stubborn..Ignorant..Nuisance..

Echos Labelling Every Tips Of My Memories..

Maybe I Should..

2009-10-17T08:49:00.002+08:00

The Day Is Here..After The Day The Haze Has Levitate Along With The Star Dust..

After All..Today I Should Find The Thing I Was Hoping For All These Long..

Failure Shall Be The Opening Of Endless Lullaby..

It Whispers To My Ears..Judging It..And Told Me I Was Wrong..

For Eternity..Turn Back Now Although Its Too Late..Run From It.. Run.....

Wind Helping Mist Unclearing Itself..

2009-09-27T23:16:00.003+08:00

Wind..blows mists away..countless way has revealed itself..just some courage and hope..i manage to find my way..to my destination..and that is...

Closer..A Chance..To Know..

2009-09-03T21:53:00.003+08:00

Timid..is all i has..it is so close..to the ending i wish to make..is it a ending..or a beginning?
I just got to wait..wait it to pass beyond me..and i will get a chance to see what's behind it..ugly truth..or a white lies?I just wish to know..no matter what happens..i promise..it will not be the thing like it happened in the past..appreciate every single moment with the one u loved the most..cherish every moment..treasure it..engrave it on your heart..to make it feel like it was..

Closer..A Chance..To Know..

I will wait..

2009-08-25T22:03:00.002+08:00

Your smile lighten up my day
Your laughter liften my heart
All the hints I gave you

Why did you not pay attention at all?
Will you give me a chance?
Can you turn my midnight into your day?
Can you be mine if I asked?

Could you forgive me and embrace under my wings
I’m forever crying for you
I’m forever, just missing for you
I love you, I’m waiting for you

Was it all my fault?
Would you have stayed if I asked?
And now my heart is yearning for you
Will you come to me?

I need you, Fate just understand, I want you
I’ll wait, no matter, I will wait..

Promisses..

2009-07-28T23:26:00.002+08:00

By this time..my trials..is not gonna make it...i make a bet on myself..a test of gifted skill..i realized that skill from the day i take my pen and wrote something..its unexplainable feeling..these few days..i get back those feelings..maybe cause some other factors..but i keep telling myself..i want my glory back..i just wan be on top 10 list again..but why is this stop happening last 5 years ago..cause i am not admitting 100% in everything i do..i guess..this is the time i had to rise again for my future...and my life...

Battlefield Of Will Power..

2009-07-19T23:27:00.003+08:00

Everything going back to normal as it is..not to 100%..80% is enough...its starting to replenish it condition like it was between me and her...not smoother like it was but it is quite smooth now..I can feel the difference..between the past and the present..In the past..i always take it roughly..till i made up a ruckus..that is the time i woke up from the battlefield of will power..my will to continue strengthening the bonds between us..

Closer..

2009-06-30T14:22:00.002+08:00

Its closer..closer as i walk..restoring everything back to normal..a bit by a bit every moment..repairing myself a bit by a bit every moment..Rushing to make this rhythm flow smoother than ever..Doesn't need sacrifices..selfishness..stuborness..only thing u need is..determination..to continue make it flow truer than ever..making realities out of images.. dreams.. fantasies ..illusions.. wishes..

Nothing can stop flowing..its flowing slower..everytime..you blocking it.. making pressure beneath the bottom of your heart .. its pressure..is unimaginable high dense.. it can destroy someone .. as it continue to exist .. this pressure once before .. exist in me .. its almost destroyed me.. my life..friends..

Its unexplainable explanation.. its a complicated matter .. but why?.. the answer exist only in yourself.. what you believe in? what did you live for? Theres only 1 answer for me.. i found this long ago.. thats happiness .. it can be bought by money..it can be doned by hardwork.. which 1 is more purer..sacred..eternally?..its still the same..the answer only exist in yourself..

The Answer..

2009-06-22T23:04:00.002+08:00

Its the answer so important?..someone asked me..did u forget the past?..especially the sad ones..i said..yeah..of course its cheating myself..i wouldnt forget something so easily..human..forget happy things more easily than sad things..this is due..we already settle down for it..satisfied..for sure sad things we wont satisfied until it was given the answer....

He asked me again..what was u searching for..?i answered him..i just wan attentions..caring..and someone to acknowledge me..but everything that i do is criticized..he told me something.."u're quiet.."..I didnt realize till he said that..I was just pretending to be loud..i just want someone to agree wif me..acknowledge me..but why..?Its not bearing any fruits..

Theres only one cure..its to fill the emptyness of my heart..searching and wandering to find the person who has the key..the feeling..that is truer than true..whiter than white..sainter than saint.. aishiteru...

The Past..

2009-06-21T22:43:00.002+08:00

I knew it 2 years ago..its the truth that anyone cant deny..but still..i am stubborn..getting myself involved too much..in the end..i let emotion of mine take over me..and done sumthing that i shouldnt do..since small..my luck..is bad..i always lost my chance..

W hen its shining glorious towards me..and i am not looking forward to it..and once i turn back..its shining toward my friends..and i am thinking.."u took it from me.."..maybe theres a 2nd term..maybe it shines towards everybody..just i am cowardly..not enough braveness to face it..and i turned away..

Maybe..this is my punishment..its 10 years including this year..and this year..i lose another nice friend caused by my emotions..things is going beyond limits..and i hope this to happen..but..my emotions took it away from me...i dunno why..maybe the time for my inner side is not awaken..but why its not now..if i am awaken now..maybe it will make a difference between me and him towards her..

Right after our friendship went bad..he comfort her..she walked into her comfort zone..i swear..i was jealous every time i see both of u were together..its destinied..she like him 2 years ago..i am ony her half brother..but now..its changed..i am nothing but just a friend..a normal ones..on the 128th day every misclarified has been unsolved..we started to talk..the air was cool..empty..full of disgraceness towards me..maybe i hurt her too much..all because of my emotions..

I rly hope..i am the person choosen in the end of the day..till today..theres a wall..boundaries between us..she is another side wif him..and wat i have is..friends..lesser ones..but why..its really my difference between him is so uncomparable?..pondering and wondering all these days..

Its all started wif emotions..It will end wif emotions..I swear today..from now on..my attitude will change..for the rest of my life..i promise u..i will not hurt u again..and the person around me..i say thanks..even the bad ones..u make me half awaken..and always remember that human is not perfect..human misjudged ppl easily..and its hard to make decision between hard and wrong..life is just a gamble..its either u win and depart to the staircase of heaven..or u lose and depart to someplace that is horrible than hell..but when it all ended..it started again..a new story..jorney and a tale of life.. aishiteru..

117th days..

2009-05-25T14:00:00.001+08:00

Turned Down..

2009-05-01T02:28:00.003+08:00

she helped me alot wif these..its 93th days since i talked to her..rly missed her voice she talked to me..rly missed those days..my bloody temper..destroyed it all..but..i didnt regret at all cause..when theres destruction..there born a new thing that so called hope..and theres born a new place for something to grow..everytime we fall..we will achieve higher and higher..stronger and stronger..theres no limit in these kinda things..

still..theres a bad thing about this..take the peak of a mountain a example..a sharp ones..its just a little difference between failure and success..just a lil step it could change the success to became a new failure..there says.."even you removed the nail from the wood..it wouldnt be the same anymore..the wound..is still there.."....eveything isnt the same anymore....

Today,tzu asked me.."when u wanna change back to the old you?"..I didnt say a thing..I was thinking.."is the answer so important?When i am not important..its just to show some concern..i rather stay like this..its better to put thing like this..i dun wanna let other ppl hurt cause of me again..especially..HER.."

2 weeks ago..may helped me asked her some silly questions..it turn out to be different than the ones i was thinking..i have no idea should i be happy or the other way..in the end..her fren helped her to answer..i just rly wanna know the answer from her deep heart core..maybe i dun hav the guts..maybe shes challenging my guts to ask her that..there till now..i was turned down..no matter how hard i try..i failed..i am a failure thats never able to success..just someone to show sympathize to me..just cause i am lack of love..i dun wan this kind of sympathize..

The Thing I Really Wants Is..Real Love..till then..all off these things i wrote..is locked..till its the right time..Tzu..if u rly wanna know when am i going to change bak the old me..i will tell u.."Never"..

Nico bday^^

2009-04-26T02:52:00.003+08:00

Gone to leisure for his bday..played around 10 hours..@@.. fun bah..still it cost me about rm70++ LOL... treat half as his bday present bah..since i duno wan buy wat lol..ate A&W then go fireworks..play some games..@@.. wasted about rm10+ there.. too excited edi.. excited than last time i go wif those guys.. they kinda selfish ya know.. its better wif these guys.. can forget about all those sad things haha^^..it still leave a scar in my memories and my heart..hmm..

see some nice movie at Speedy..naruto movie 5:Bonds.. DAMN NICE SIA..12.90 onli...cheap cheap LOL..then we go find our bday boy geh gf..kei may xD..she bring her bro as well..her bro is her bodyguard @@..then nico and kei may go pak toh..no choi us edi..T.T..jk la xD..her bro become lightbulb =x..and his rules is...""touch my sis 1 time RM10 a!!""..(i am thinking..your sis worth RM10 oni? =.="..)kinda funny though..

we go see Mall Cops xD..damn unlogic and ki siao =.=..1 untrained security guard..dun hav weopon or anything =.=..can GG 8~9 ppl of bad guys taking over the mall.=.=..unlogic..unlogic..finish le we go popular..see many anime too xD..kei may suddenly disappeared ._. LOL..recovered them near speedy geh door..xD..then she go bak le..oh ya..i still owe her baskin robins/secret recipe/ etc =.=..jia lat liao this time..lucky she duno whack ppl =D

nico got a big appetite -.-..he ate chicken rice>chee cheong fun>burger..lol..NICO IS GAY!WAHAHAHA!!xD..jk sia lol..thats all =/..no pics =.=..sien..

well..really wish to go out wif u guys again la..kinda sad u guys no invite me go play wif u all....did u really forget about me..?i just wan attentions..it is too hard to give attention to somebody else?..or should i say its selfish arrogant?i dont know..

Pc Fair..

2009-04-12T21:57:00.002+08:00

Its years since i gone to any big event such as this pc fair..this time quite many new things and promotion..kinda regret didnt bought any items back..kinda tight these days..maked some stories about 2 gays affair..story makeup kinda nice xD..wish to go these event again..kinda nice..since i am a bit outdated..kinda stucked in my house every month..wish to go out see more things..kinda suffering now..due to some issue..

1st time in my life again..

2009-02-28T22:23:00.002+08:00

Its 1st time in my life..CHEERLEADING..similiar to dancing..lol..i cant believe i did that..1st of all..i wanna thx..is..u all..my closest friends..u all push me to a realm where nobody exist..during that moment..aaron called me go to PYP..since i dont have anything to do..then i go there to make new friends..well..to understand christian culture too..although i am a non christian =)

True Friends Are True Enemies..
True Enemies Are True Friends..
The Beginning Is The End..
The End Is The Beginning..

25th Day Passed..The Old Me?

2009-02-23T18:08:00.003+08:00

Its the 25th day since we talked..rly missed those old days..just few days ago..one of my friend asked me..y was u like this?y cant u stop scolding ppl for your living and become the OLD me.

The Old me?as i remembered..it was 10 years ago..since then my life changed..u all didnt know..the old me was more horrible than the 1 now..my friend say i scold her cause i wanna scare her away cause i love her?come on..dun make me laugh..shes good to be with but still i hate her attitude..

Its a whole week of camping..next week its the trial exam..guess i GG soon..wish me luck..

You all..DAMN sien..

2009-01-20T22:23:00.002+08:00

lame day..study study as usual from moning till 6pm o_o..come back dota dota dota..lose lose lose..hate hate hate..sien sien sien..all oso no choi me in msn..like myself facing to a wall..kinda crappy..now myself rly like street ghost than a hollow ghost..sienz..suite u all..damn de lame.

Is Just What I Wanted..

2009-01-19T17:33:00.003+08:00

That person..its been years..since i know ..not very long but..its feels like i knew since small..doesnt take me as a close fren but we was very happy..dont care what they said..we just do whatever we wanted to make ourselve happy..especially..on the trip to melaka last year..it was fun enough..but.......

That trip..its still fresh in my mind..its something that i wont forget in the rest of my life with u..yeah.. i mean U..although we didnt talked much..cause he is wif other ppl..wat i can do is just..watch..i felt being leftout..i just wan u to talk more to me..enjoy the trip wif me more than everyone else..

During the night at the trip..they all sleep safe and sound around 2am..just me,brian at outside of the room..that time we was quarrelling so we didnt talked..it been 2 hours without even throwing a word out of my mouth..brian too..

Before they sleep..we play uno cards outside of the room..till teacher Rosnie come to call us go sleep..that person acompanied me through words..although its just a wall blocking us..i just felt funny..we chat about 30 minutes till they gone in to bed..i gone to bed at 4 waked up at 7..i was rly tired and i hav a long day up ahead..

The next day..we gone to some temple..from there onwards..it started again..i am just like a hollow ghost..then..we gone to the NS Butterfly Park..not only butterflies..but theres other thing like fish,plants,flowers,reptiles..and many more..that person was late..i was waiting..but when that person came..i was like a hollow ghost again..till the end of the trip..i was unhappy..i said..this is a holiday for u..but this is a nightmare for me..during that time..Maybe i just think too much..think too far..too deep..till it devours me..

I just wish..WISH that this never happen b4..cause i take that person like a close person..but that person never take me as a important person b4..i'm just like a person to share complains ..Till that day till now..i just take that person just a normal person to me..MAYBE..maybe u just care about the person same class wif u..I DONT GIVE A DAMN about it..so what..i was very satisfied..with everything that i done..since i can concentrate on my studies for PMR and SPM..spending my 6 hours in the class not even a close frens i can share wif..i too dun GIVE A DAMN..

Today..it was the same..hollow ghosts..between me and that person..just 1 person in the edge..we didnt talked for days..not even msn..but now..i just hope i erase u from my memories..i regret knowing u..u was very troublesome..all these..Is Just What I Wanted..

School

2009-01-07T03:31:00.002+08:00

Well, school for me was okay... The only thing that I am not satisfied with now is, the teacher appointed me as AJK Disiplin. I am not even well-disciplined myself, the job itself is also quite useless, just making sure teachers sign the Buku Pemantauan.

Other than that, everything was quite okay for me. I am supposed to be a prefect this year, but someone told me that he was going to quit as a prefect and so I rejected the prefect job as well. And by some miracle divine, I saw him in long-sleeved, blue colour uniform....

In conclusion, I miss the school days...

1st day of school Oo..

2009-01-05T20:35:00.003+08:00

1st of all..i wanna say...the headmistress..is..terrible..horrible..and vegetable..argh..lame..
malaysia is unfair..school system suks..why cant they just follow overseas' system.. by just studying free time .. no time limits.. without wearing uniforms..with those cold weather..winter..snow..snowflakes..breezing air..damn-ed..if i have my last wish with my last breath around..i will wish that..from my vision..my last minute..there will be snowflakes dropping from the sky..with a cold breeze air bringing my soul away..to the lifestream where the end existed..

bored bored bored..thats what i can say for the 1st day of school lolz..just some small fries frens in my class..theres nothing much i can talk to them..just as i expected..i will spend over half of my time at school zipping my mouth without saying a thing..at the end..wat i can say is..its just me and the atmosphere..

Back...

2008-12-27T21:54:00.001+08:00

It's been weeks since I update blog, had the most wonderful 2 weeks in my life in Kuantan. Compared to Kuala Lumpur, their difference is just like comparing heaven and hell. In Kuala Lumpur, you can find carbon dioxide, carbon monoxide and toxins where as in Kuantan, everywhere is greenery, full with plants.

Even though Kuantan is not as developed and advanced as Kuala Lumpur but there are many things that can be found in Kuantan but not Kuala Lumpur such as a clean beach, a beautiful lake scenery, a peacful place, a house that is 5 times the size of my Kuala Lumpur house that cost only 400k.

I got to say, Kuantan is an ideal place for me. I hate hectic life, dirty air, no greenery. Because of that, I think I will be moving to Kuantan once I pass my PMR with flying colours, that is if I am even capable of achieving it.

Hmm, my dear Kuantan friends, they are just awesome. They let me stay at their house, sleep with them. This is just an unforgettable memory, I will remember this forever. Kuantan residents are just too damn kind-hearted. Some people living in Kuala Lumpur are really proud of themselves just because their clothing is branded.

I mean, in Kuantan, with just one phone call, you can get anyone to fetch you, no matter what time is it. I am serious, I arrived there about 3 a.m. in the morning and I just called one of my friends, about 5 minutes later, she is there. A really good friend.

Kuantan people are seriously rich but they never boast, even Datuks and Datins have their tea-time with me. They are really nice and friendly, I think I really can get along well with adults, well, I am from Kuantan and I am really proud that I am from Kuantan!!

miserable day ever..

2008-12-15T01:46:00.002+08:00

What can i say is..i hate today..it sucks ever..from morning till night..from the moment i was awake..bad luck was haunting me -.-..catched cold for about 2 hours..then stop..zzz..came back from tuition..big rain..zzz...dc-ed many times zzzzzz...makes me no mood..-.-..most miserable is..theres 1..ppl..sumbody >.>..i was rly rly pissed off..just about to get some help from him..and then..suddenly.."y find me?"..lolz..fine lol..i dun care about that..then i know its useless to ask from him..havent even get help from him already wanna show that kinda "y find me?".."this isnt my responsibilities~"attitude..duh..-.-..then i say "fine lolz..find u help still achi acho there..i shoo lo"..he said..""shoo la..later need my help cannot find me dun regret""..lolz..fine lolz..i pissed myself out..since my day already miserable i dun mind to get miserable twice..=.="..at last..cl and joe cheer me up le..we 3 make trio twin in maple xD..it was rly nice lol..go some place oso ppl say..""i blind or wat F6..got 3 clone~"" xD..

Once again..

2008-12-11T14:17:00.002+08:00

These days..its like DejaVu..same thing keep repeating again..it take place months ago..it was some sleepless nights..listening to the sound of the teardrop..it keep flowing just like a lifestream..it make me think clearly the second time..and hurt for the second time..i just dun understand y could this happen to me again..i promised myself that i wouldnt be hurt this time..finish it and say farewell to it..but why..its struggling within me..tell me not to..i dun understand..it was left uncleared..left unsolved..without solution..without any clues..without any mistakes..

Left Handed..

2008-12-07T15:00:00.002+08:00

Using a left hand..is..troublesome..1st of all..everytime u take something..its like automatic..u will use your left hand =_=...and yes..i did it again..use left hand take thing kena marah -.-...its not like i wanted to do that..its automatic!!..sigh..T_T..

Secondly,somethings cant be used by left hand well..scissors as a example..many scissors designed for right handed ..cant deny it..some scissors handle's texture design just for right handed..

Thirdly,when u write something using a pencil or a ink pen..your hand sure get dirty..when left handed write things..the hand got pass by the words everytime but right handed not so often..kinda hate it when i was in primary school..use pencil..ZzZzZzZzZz...

Lastly,ppl say left handed very clever..its totally wrong..=_="..WRONG..-.-..and some ppl get scolded for this kinda matter..""y u use left hand but so stupid?!?!?!""..left handed so wat?we arent god..=.=..zZzZzZz...

19th of December

2008-12-06T01:12:00.001+08:00

Well, I heard you guys are going to celebrate Leon Leon (YCL) and Lik Hui's birthday at KLCC. Well, I want to apologize because I can't accompany you guys... So have fun!!

lame lolx..

2008-12-04T01:13:00.002+08:00

wake up at 2pm today -.-..syiok yesterday..slept 4am..-.-..LOL..hmm..tomorow morning nid go makan lol..sienz..i hate waking up early..*yawn*...bb sleep..-.-..

The time is so near..its on the peak of time..better make up my decision b4 it reached the peak and fall off.. and my every effort will be perished..till the end of time..

wee...

2008-12-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

LoL..i like the holiday just for this week xD...my sis went to singapore for school trip,so left me alone in the house xD..the whole com..IS MINE~!...M-I-N -E~!..

morning till night its all mine xD...lolz..yesterday slept at 6am in the morning @.@..nid pui ppl..lol..but still kinda syiok xD..hehe..

Sorry...

2008-11-30T21:43:00.002+08:00

Hi, I am back, well, not much to say, really busy these holidays.... Going to keep this blog updated....

ZzZzZz...

2008-11-26T00:04:00.002+08:00

Was tired these pretty few days..especially last sunday lolz..gone back to Johor for my cousin's wedding..>.>..waked up about 5am(only sleep for 2 hours =.="..)..pack bag then start the car by 8am..>.>...reach about 11am++ lolz..~.~...well kinda nice there..fresh air xD..too bad no com..T_T..

I was starving at that time i reached there..=_="..as soon as i enter the house..i smell some kind of delicious scent...=.o..it was actualy MY LUNCH~!~!..Haha for my lunch.. that is...>>>> ""SpEcIaL HoMeMaDe ViLLaGe TasTe BaK KuT TeH""~!~!~! (101% not halal..dun ask me wat is this pls =x..)wakakaka!!made by my grandma..1st time eat this kind of taste lolz..

Theres something funny..everytime i go back there..my cousin stomach was bloated..=_="..
1st he ate bak kut teh..then he ate curry chicken..then he eat that "lo mai kai" then eat the "siew pau" and then drink soup..lastly he drink coca-cola...WTH MAN~!..=.=..it was incredible..(i mean his stomach xD..)

At night we attend our cousin de wedding at some high class restaurant O.o... *Spooky*... xD.. lolz..the food was quite nice..although it serve on 1 whole plate for the table,but everyone ate 1 then finish liao..=.=""...(kedekut de restaurant..=.=..)..my cousin in wedding's bro sang many songs lolz..its like the stage is his 1 liao xD...but his voice was awesome >.>..he can morph his sound into jay chou,jacky cheung,ah niu and many singer de voice LOL!! xD...

when almost when back le then rain big big..too bad it was a one day trip..>.>..kinda tiring lolz..although i was not the driver xD..reach kl about 1am++..come back then change clothes..then..WHAM~!..on my bed 2feet above ground on my tilam sleeping like a pig
(^(oo)^)v....

holiday~...

2008-11-19T02:18:00.003+08:00

lolz..bored..everyday is the same activity..wake up...eat...play game..sleep.. X100000 times...ZzZzZzZz...

LoLz..my fren are attractive but he dunno..>.>...he just wanna be fren wif girl but he dunno he attracted them..=.="..he come ask me.."wat will u do if some1 confess to u?"..then i say.."accept la~!"..=.="..since he also a bit touched by her..they 2 oso so "kap"~xD...he still wan think banyak banyak .=="...he say dun wan cause he wan concentrate on study again...same like that guy last time.. ZzZzZz..enough of these shit LOL~!...If i heard 1 more time again i will chop those ppl into a sculpture or something..>.>...~.~..xD...

Friends

2008-11-17T14:36:00.003+08:00

My Photoshop sucks...

Penguin Shuffle

2008-11-16T20:02:00.003+08:00

Hope you all like this cute short clip~~

Hello, Just A Introduction..

2008-11-16T17:58:00.002+08:00

Well, my beloved dear friend An Kar Ting, has just entrust me with his blog. Haha, maybe I can do well in blogging? Maybe not, well, just a post to tell you all that I am joining in his blog.... Hope all of you can enjoy your time in his dear bloggy...

HoLiDay LU~~!~!~!

2008-11-15T01:06:00.005+08:00

yeah..start holiday edi..holiday is nice at the beginning but it suks at the end..i wonder why lolz..haha today i saw something funny..

Expensive football boots, RM700..
Expensive football RM 150..
Scoring an own goal ... Priceless ..

lol its rly funny xD..if u rly know wat the meaning it is ~.~..hmm..now i lost my sense of direction choosing a game to play..>.>..DW..QW..RO..MS..atlantica..dota..zzz...

Tagged By Fern:
*Pick your birth month.
*Italic out anything that doesn’t apply to you.
*Bold the best apply to you.
*Copy to your own blog, with all twelve months.
*Tag 5 people.

AUGUST:Thinks far with vision.. Easily influenced by kindness.. Polite and soft-spoken.. Having ideas.. Sensitive.. Active mind.. Hesitating,. tends to delay.. Choosy and always wants the best.. Temperamental.. Funny and humorous.. Loves to joke.. Good debating skills.. Talkative.. Daydreamer.. Friendly.. Knows how to make friends.. Able to show character.. Easily hurt.. Prone to getting colds.. Loves to dress up.. Easily bored.. Fussy.. Seldom shows emotions.. Takes time to recover when hurt.. Brand conscious.. Executive.. Stubborn..

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

-FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

-MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

-APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

-MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

-JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

-JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.-

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

-SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

-OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

-NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

-DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor

Who Is Our TAI LOU In School

2008-11-09T10:20:00.002+08:00

See this pic you will know...

All Ends Today...

2008-11-07T22:30:00.016+08:00

All ends today..the test is over..i should be happy but i dont..i felt tired with all of these..i felt i lost something..something that cant be replaced..i feel myself that i am in a calm dark swamp..

everytime i was calling for somebody..i was ignored like a gasp
................of air..or just a wind pass by..

everytime i nid comfort..i was crying hiding behind the wall..or just a
................woody stump..

everytime i want to lend my hand..i was ignored like a pile of trash..

everytime i was trying so hard that i taught i would success this time..i
................was rejected again and again..

Everytime when those thing happen above..i was trying to think.."am i so weird?am i a hopeless guy?am i so useless?..i will answer..maybe..i am..

All i just wan is to get attention from u guys..maybe i am rly too weird..too weird till i will think about these..maybe..we are from different world..many of u guys are from upper class society..still i am not friendly enough,not sparky enough,not good enough,not classy enough,not updated enough..fine..i dun care..i dun care wether u laugh at me or whatsoever..i just hope all of us not separated even we all are different school or class..i rly hope all of us will remain forever..

31th August not Merdeka , This Friday is Merdeka!

2008-11-05T21:01:00.004+08:00

At last , sej paper had finish..This time de sej quite easy..Hope u all can get A!Two more day we merdeka..Time Square i'm coming!..OK i want go study for tomorrow le..
YCL dun maple le..go study..=X

Destiny?

2008-10-30T01:43:00.004+08:00

Today happen many thing thats fated i think..One of my fren was very lucky..>.>..got ppl confessed to him/her leh~~lol..sumore its long term love..that ppl that confessed to him/her live far far away from k.l...still..my fren rejected le wor..he/she din sleep for whole night cause wanna answer back to that ppl ..my fren rejected him/her cause his excuse is..he/she wan concentrate on studies..having a relationship while studying will effect anything de meh..?i dun understand..LOL..

For me leh..past few months i know a person..from that day till now..everyday see that guy oso hi here hi there but we didnt ask for each other's name xD..until today i ask that guy giv me email ..but i still dunno that guy de name lol..that guy de email invalid oso..-.-..dunno that guy wan trick me or wat..nvm..tomorow hi here hi there again i ask kekeke...

Deepavali...

2008-10-27T01:44:00.004+08:00

Happy Deepavali~!...lolz..this year de depavali like very slow..or should i say..its like not exist in this year ~.~..lolz..wat can i say..my parents under cold war..lol..cant they be a little bit more matured..fighting like kids..zzz..one day i will be very pissed and will piss them off in a nice and full wif manners way.. not like the way i used last few years..xD..but dunno when..

lolz..1 week more exam lu..i still cant get sejarah into my head lol..i am so dead..this time so gonna fail..gonna go lucky by shooting answers xD..lolz thursday done my seni liao~!.....i drew 2 butterfly....LOL....just as i thought... IT SUKS..xD..haha..drawing and designing is a BIG difference..xD..oh god..i wont do it again =p..

CL..the template cant post header de..~.~..sumore i help u fixed the navbar liao..it rly makan my time lo~...oh yeah..lisa your header i havent done yet..wait 1 more week after my school exam liao i help u do..=)..still finding your feel about the bridge for the header u told me that u want lol..

38 tsunami mushroom headed 610 years old ocean jie..your song hor..u nid slow slow wait =p..wait me got time only help u dl..wakakaka!!!jk la..i dling it now lolz..lol..tsu u say my blog boring a..?sry lo..u see!!i help tsa until no time decorate own blog!!..xD...LOL..hahax..

lolz..

2008-10-22T01:55:00.002+08:00

Haha..today was quite a fun day too..only some teacher teached..other din come or slacking xD..lol kah joe almost had a beat from those brainless idiot today..we taught we all wan see show de..at last they no fight xD..lol..sien..

lol..brian,your evil plot for my revenge mission too jin edi..=p..and i dun wanna make my fren uneasy lol..i prefer do it myself bah =)..although u all say i kinda too evil edi..still..i must take this revenge de..lol..sry guys..i just cant let it down lol..that ppl make me suffer till like this lol..i dun trust anything like that anymore for a long time..now i only know how to break it lolz..i will return it as much that ppl done to me..i know this is damn childish lol~!..still this is unavoidable for me..

thursday seni test lol..it suks..fail i oso dun care leh..~.~..even i design something i still hate arts lol..very little ppl know how to appreciate art..too little leh..they make the arts suks even its high in quality..

2008-10-21T01:21:00.002+08:00

1 more week ++ exam lo..seni exam was the 1st lolz..we get the seni test paper today..lazy wan see..later think too much do the art like shit..xD..today was quite fun lol..teacher teached all the sylable edi..now we all can slack leh..lolz..today quite bored oso..come back bath,eat,study..play com sleep lol..SIEN..everyday same procedure..(except for the study part..study exam only do)..

we all planned going TS see show lolz..hope it going smooth >.>..no delay lolz..cause it is delayed edi..=.=..i damn bored at house edi..wan rot..zzzz...

My memory very cha jor..

2008-10-18T10:24:00.002+08:00

As usual every friday i go play basketball..so at the morning i go take mun lok and go together with me..after sampai then we play basketball lo...then mun kiet they all wan VS kent de team..so mun kiet call me help him take his handphone 1st..then i sit wit tuck pin see they play lo..then suddenly my mum sampai take me back..i 4get giv back mun kiet handphone and str8 go back..i reach my house then i check my pocket..i also terkejut why got two handphone!then i fast fast call siew and ask him to tell mun kiet i take his handphone back..then at 12.00 i oni go back to the basketball court and give back him..

My memory really cha jor..

i am sick..-_-..

2008-10-16T01:47:00.002+08:00

lolz..today was the last day i study for this week^^..my class usd for PMR examination lol..i guess free holiday xD..lol great..got extra time to study..today was a boring day lol..this time only 20+~30+ ppl came in my class lol..got 1 class only got 4 ppl came xD..crazy LOL..i cant believe it the teachers are still so energetic to teach =x..i taught they gonna slack whole day and let us sleep lol xD...

today it was raining cats and dogs >.>..damn fierce thunderstrike lolz xD..sigh..i fell sick when i reach home lol..i already catch a cold on monday leh..-.-..this time rly sick 99..-.-..sigh..lol..tomorow and the day after tomorow can slack at home studying leh xD..after study can enjoy DotA wif my frens kekekeke^^v..

today it makes me think deeply lol..dun ever cause a misunderstanding to the ppl using other ppl...its going to be worser and worser..till u become crazy to think of it..>.>..lol..i swear to myself wont use other ppl as my shield edi ~.~..

Walking To Weng Kai House

2008-10-15T09:16:00.004+08:00

Here we can see also weng kai walking style

bored..

2008-10-14T00:43:00.002+08:00

..only 3 form2 classes got study..damn sien..still..the teacher teach..-.-..lum go langkawi..later he come back claim souvenir from him kekeke.. today siew and kiet ponteng again..the teacher dun care>.>... wtf ?..*yawn* ..study ..study .. study.. exam coming .. =_=".. i cant believe i rly touched the book this year ..zZzZzZ. ..hope i get good result this time =_=..everytime oso get the result like i wanna die edi..-_-..tomorow syahirah open house >.>..who wan go get duit raya kekeke..^^v..

Tomorow School starts~!

2008-10-13T01:32:00.002+08:00

haha tomorow school starts leh..i havents kemas my beg yet ><..zzz..i lost my books..-.-...again..hell...haha tomorow PMR we cant buat bising edi =x...later kena whack xD...damn tired..wanna sleep liao =x..its almost 2am xD...anyway wish gud luck to those take PMR de bah..and mun hoong..u still owe me a calculator..-.-...

very suay today..

2008-10-12T02:14:00.004+08:00

sien..today very suay a...very bu shuang liao.......lost 3 streak in a row in DotA..-_-"...fast past 2 more day go back school leh..exam coming..T_T...haiz..today kena balas dendam oso..=.=..watchout aaron..-.-..

Tagged by:Aaron..-.-..(red color+bold..i really meant it =3..)

^STARTING TIME^-(2.17am)
Name-(RaGeAn)
Sister-(yea)
Brothers-(no)
Sheo Size-(10-11)
Where do u live-(Bukit Permai)
Favourite drinks-(anything that is drinkable =x)
Favourite breakfast-(i dun eat breakfast usually =x)
Have you been on the plane-(yea)
Swam in the ocean-(yea)
Broken someone's heart-(always..stab them directly x.x)
Fallen asleep in school-(rarely)
Fell of your chair-(yea)
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call-(nope..ppl wait for my call only =x)
Saved e-mails-(i readed then i leave it there..it is count as saved? =x)
What is your room like-(*no comment*)
What is the last thing you ate-(mcD)

^EVER HAD^
Chicken pox-(yea)
Stitches-(wats that? O.o)
Broken nose -(nope)
Do you believe in love at first sight-(maybe)
Like picnics-(no if its under a hot sun)
Who was the last person you danced with-(didnt dance b4? )
Last person who made you smile-(myself?)

^TODAY DID YOU^
Talked to someone you like-(maybe)
Kissed anyone-(yea my pillow xD)
Get sick-(no)
Talked to an ex-(did I? O.o)
Missing someone-(home sweet home~)
Best feeling in the world-(nope)
Do you sleep with stuffed animals-(nope)
What's under your bed-(i sleep on the floor..=.=..)
What is the time now-(2.22am)

^RANDOM^
There a person on your mind right now-(yea)
Do you want children-(never think of it b4)
Do you smile often-(no idea)
What colour shirt are you wearing-(yellow)
When did you cry last-(when i got myself trashed?last year?)
Are you a friendly person-(if u think i am =x)
Where is the person you have feelings for right now-(probably living a good life too)
Do you eat healthy-(eat while u can thats my slogan =x)
Do you still have pictures with you and your ex-(i got so lucky bo? =x)
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you-(no..but the other way around)
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to-(sit in front of com doing nth for 24 hours)
Are you loud or quiet most of the time-(not sure)
Are you confident-(lack of it)

^5 SNACKS I ENJOY^
-something with blueberry
-Fried Rice
-McD
-Smashed Potato
-Fries

^5 PEOPLE THAT YOU TAG^-
i am not tagging anyone =3..

Busy..Busy..

2008-10-08T01:38:00.004+08:00

Its going to be busy than ever these few weeks..x.x..tuition non-stop for 1 week..finish my folio..study..study..i hav no time to rest..T_T..3 more week and the examination gonna start -.-.. as usual..few weeks before exam started,my book going to lost 1 by 1..=_=..last year i lost 3 of my borrowed text book..this year i lost 2..=_=..sumore text books are like exstinct edi..sigh..

lol 1st time kena tagged >.>..
Tagged by rainbow fern:

15 weird things/habits/little known facts about myself:

Cant sleep before past 12 >.>
Talk so fast that myself couldnt understand O.o..
Often get bored in school...
I dun like eating breakfast..i direct eat for lunch kekeke..
Have family problem since small..unavoidable..
3 hour sleep for 1 day is enough for me..
Lack of self confidence >.>...
I like to sleep on the floor without the bed sheet =3..
I rather die cause of frostbite than die cause of heat^^
Often STML(short term memory lost) o.o..
I prefer to eat rice than any other food out there >.>
Trying to improve my designing skills..-.o..
Collecting whole set of designing tools kekekeke...
Sigh..I hate my sight when it reaches night..(you 2 know wat happen bah..)..
Say something directly without knowing the causes and after-effect and hurt you all quite often >.>...

I Tagged:Kazuma Lee,gardeNIA,tsunami OcEaN

1st day of school..o.o..

2008-10-06T23:34:00.003+08:00

1st day of school..it reminds me of..homeworks..=_=..still..there are many teacher not around lol xD..i manage to finish my homework b4 school starts kekekeke...as usual =x..we spend a lot of time chatting in the class xD..sumore my printer rosak rosak when i wanna print my folio..zZzZzZ.. exams is around the corner >.>...i am so sure i gonna drop class next year *_*"...

lol..tsa de blog template changed..i guess i no nid to do the stupid header for sumtimes..can goyang kaki edi..>.>..yeong remember a..2 weeks!..=_=..change to art imagination after 2 week pls..=_=..admin dun malas..activ a bit ..=_=...

28 Sep 2008 My Unlucky Day ><

2008-10-01T20:00:00.002+08:00

28 Sep, i sick like hell.When i wake up , i go eat something then suddenly want vomit ..(i though i pregnant le LOL)..Then i didn't tell my mum.Me wait wait until afternoon, still like wan to vomit..Then i tell my mum.Then my mum go out buy ubat to me eat..When i want telan the ubat then i vomit..my room dirty like hell...After i muntah , i think myself pulih le so i go play computer LOL..after play then at night start to demam..my mum bring me to Pandan Perdana see doctor..so ngam all clinic close! then go near Pandan Mewah de clinic..the clinic is open but no DOCTOR..go hell la no doctor no nid open la..then i go another clinic..the clinic got doctor but many people..then i wait wait until 12.30 only get to see the doctor..after that then i back home eat ubat and sleep.....

(I see this blog so unactive , So i write something lo^^ )

Notice:
Don't go near Pandan Mewah kfc there de clinic...no doctor still open..gila punya..

holiday for 1 week..yay...(-_-)...

2008-09-30T00:44:00.003+08:00

1st day of holiday..i am bored to death edi..=/...crap..7 more day..T_T...haiz..kahwai sick edi..fast cure back a..we wan play dota wif u..lol tomorow still got match a..me,yeong,pang VS brian,wengkai,kahwai..jyjy..sien no mood write..too bored edi..=_=..sry for those who kena fk by me today..-_-..seriously no mood..bloody no mood..-_-""...

bz day^^v....

2008-09-28T02:53:00.005+08:00

lol these few days very bz leh..bz until i dun wan do anything edi...design this design that,write this write that,disscuss this disscuss that,own here own there~! =x..lol..today our team won a DoTa match lol.It was nice and challenging fight.The opponent quite strong...few of them..err..*no comment*..lol..i assisted many time leh...i saved your guys life until i cant kill..RAWR~!T_T....

I designed a Key to Dreamland header for Lisa lol.thx ya for giving a chance to do a header for yur blog lol^^v.. http://lifeindreamland.blogspot.com gogo see her blog leng lui lai de lol =x..hmm..today i finished tsa header earlier then i taught..i got my help from my long last fren..boppyz~!^^

Well i dun rly like his style lol..(everyone will like his style,i am so sure about it^^)..when we combined our style together its fabulous~!my time doing the header rly shorten a lot this time..cause we 2 got photoshop LOL~!..1 thing i know hes pro with..BURN~!HES A BURNER WATCHOUT~!HES GONNA BURN DOWN YUR HOUSE~!LoL~!

Hmm.. about the write write thing..firstly gogo read the story 1st >.> http://smktsromance.blogspot.com/ <.<..i gonna go in another sequel..theres 1 more script written by me lol its call Endless Lullaby gogo http://hw3it3ng.blogspot.com/ for more information =p..still in construction..i am rushing on it lol..quite buzy these few days..x.x..

crappy day..

2008-09-23T02:23:00.009+08:00

LOL..full of choices and decision i need to make today..its about the team again..i am cut off from the list lol..3 more weeks then the player list will be submited..lol..i am so done for it..x.x..haiz..i am a failure from the beginning..-.-..in all aspects..i am bored of these kind of life...

i starting to rot in calculating math..=.=..i still havent bought my calculator yet..its been almost a year...nid to buy it...if not my math was gonna done for it..-.o..hehe..dun ever play hide things~sometimes u will get played back the same tactics =p..(you know who u guys are^^v)

LoL..sometimes i think of myself..was i think too much?or was i taking it simple?..should i say it out o not?...it always got many way outta box..different way bear different consequences..if u choosen that way..its hard to make a U-turn on a 1 sided road..you cant wait for chances.. you must create the chances yourself..its same like creating a road,way or a path to the glory..

You cant find these answers by yourself..u nid someone to support you..its frens..friendship bears great power that u cant imagine..appreciate the time u have with your loved ones,frens and family before its too late..u cant know wats gonna happen to u the next day..thats something everyone cant deny it..everyone grow old..u cant return the time like it was..bad things occured more than good things happens..take it positively..it is a test of endurance,courage and tolerance from god..

Everytime u lost something..someone..It Was Fated..but before that..think carefully.. why..why u lost them...isit u done not good enough..or u wasnt skilled enough..It Was Fated u cant change it...BUT before that..before u reach the fate..u still nid to choose the way u must take...like i said..different way bear different consequences.. fate doesnt control 100% of your life..even it control 99% of your life..you still have 1% to change it..it depends on your will..with even that 1%..u can make that 100% of fate like the way u wanna choose...

Even u are kind hearted enough..to give away all the things u like..in the end u cant let go all..u still nid to hold on..hold on something that makes u goes on..anything happen life goes on..i cant keep go on like this..i will lose everything..EVERYTHING....

Boring or Complain Day? =.=||...

2008-09-17T21:16:00.010+08:00

Lol.today holiday wakakaka~!i hav no idea y today holiday but its holiday in selangor state kekekekeke..

Hmm..hear many complains today -.o...lol...y cant they understand my work style? x.x...i cant design well if 우유 and me didnt cooperate well..dun blame me..blame msn..-.-..complains complains complains...make me do a stupid design..horrible and ugly..sheesh...i cant get inspiration from the pic i find..-.-..우유 find pic with inspiration,power and soul..but i cant find pic with those attributes lol..thats y i nid her to find pics -.-.. P.S : this is my style of work =.=..u all wan complain wat then bear with it..i just hate to being accussed..

Lol..my fren..why u scare gossip so much?..if u wan to know the answer just straight forward ask her(be brave..BRAVE..)..in the end its all about the complains..if u keep complain in front of us u wont get the answer..same as u keep nagging that u wanna die that u cant live without her....it wont work..=.=..

if shes yours..

then shes yours..

if she isnt yours..

it is fated..

if she doesnt like you and reject you..

then be happy for her when she find mr.right..

__________________________________________________________

Even u 2 like each other..coupling are not optional lol..for now most important is..

STUDY LA~!THINK SO MUCH FOR WAT WAN DIE A~!..

(your brain kosong = your pocket kosong when big..when big pocket kosong = hard find gf~!) right o not!? lol^^v..

P.S : lol i dun wan say who a..who wan guess then guess a..as long its not me can liao =x

...Lantern Festival...

2008-09-08T00:08:00.003+08:00

Today..we hav a lantern festival celebration and nicholas,cheok,yee yan de bday in nicholas d house..quite fun lol..reached there at 9.30 or sumthing like that..played DOTA at his house lol =p..after the girls come we start preparing the things..lol they maked a super disgusting homemade chili padi they every made..the ingredient include chilies,lemon,black pepper and some other secret ingredient LOL~!

We played some water balloon lol nicholas punya water fee gone up =p..(sumore his brother say will reach 1000+...=.=..its that logic?..i think convert to rupiah currency its LOGIC~!)..we changed cloth and rest awhile after all those splashing and revenge =3...I am proudly announce...the wettest person in SMKTS(2008) with non-stop splashing action..(splash by ppl xD)..is....__2W_d__LiM TzU YeE~!__LOL~!

We took chicken rice for dinner lol..at my table got Lum,Yeong,Kah wai,Arief,Chai and me..we talked crap till yeong cant finished his rice..sumore he vomit the chicken LOL~!(ew..disgusting ..=p)

We played poison box at night..-.-..lol..i didnt kena the poison box..but something very embarassing happen to me =.=...(those who play know..lol..why dun choose other ppl..WHY ME..x.x..) the punishment very kejam for those who didnt done the task given..(lol..some task is evil..u will never ever get to complete it..-,-)..guess what..remember wat i mentioned?..super disgusting homemade chili padi..ppl say its bitter de..0.o..lol..sumore its smells like..*no comment*..v=.=v...

Then we cut cakes lol..for those bday boys & girl..the coffee cake was nice lol..we played candles at nicholas d car pack lol..they almost burn nicholas house down..(lol where got so serious..wan put some action packed atmosphere only =x..)..there is 2 things that is horrible and nice to do when u playing candle and fire...thats is...CANDLISM and BOXILISM..(copyrighted word of ~RaGeAn~ 2008 till 9998)..candlism = burn candle till wan break the steel fence =p..
boxilism = burn the box until the fire is uncontrolled xD...LOL i post the pic..(or the proof they rly did that =x..) A.S.A.P~! xD..

Gloomy Day..

2008-09-06T22:52:00.002+08:00

Waked up at 11.30..i felt weird O.o..THERES NO SUN..-.-..lol..i taught my clock mati edi -.-...or eitheir i at heaven or hell edi LOL..today very very sien de day..no sun come out..sumore rain all day..i am slightly fever..lol..must catched a cold last night x.x...haiz..now dunno tomorow de gathering can go o not..T_T...

Haha come on..world peace lol~..u cant change the world and u arent always right =3..sometimes u nid to face de truth even it hurts your feelings lol..haha i experienced it b4..face the truth before its getting deeper^^v..

Im BaCk To LIFE~!

2008-09-04T00:18:00.003+08:00

lolz thx my jie fu efong~! xD..helped me fixed my graphic card de problem wakaka xD..kekeke
now can spend my time with my fren liao play DOTA wakakaka~!~!~!..

kinda dissapointed..

2008-09-02T23:17:00.002+08:00

lolz MERDEKA~!..today started fasting season liao lu~kekeke but me no fasting lolz^^..haiz..kinda dissapointed for the 1st day lol..i cant enter the training session for basketball x.x..i knew this day would come when my basic skills totally messed up T_T....at last i didnt make it in lol..as for next year's school team i oso unsure that can i make it in the team lol..my spirits and my wills for basketball starting to break up..my steps for the goal is starting to spliting up too..

I'm Back..NiCe BirThDay~!

2008-08-26T23:13:00.003+08:00

Haha sry a com broke down for 1 month ><...
lol those who ask for my school blog a..the link change edi
change to http://tsassociation.blogspot.com edi x.x..

Lol last sunday was my birthday hahax..nothing much happen on my birthday lolz..
just a normal day like the other sunday haha..wake up..wash face..brush teeth..
..eat breakfast..play some crappy games then go back to sleep LOL~!...
My holiday ended on that day too lol~T_T.....my holiday is damned..rly DAMNED -.-....
holiday with no com rly sien till die..==...

On the next day school starts -.o...well not bad xD..talk a lot of crap with cheok cheok~!
LoL~!Thx you guys for the AND1 ball..it was rly nice lol xD...kiet kiet brother i promise you
next year i buy you 1 dun be sad^^v~!LoL they giv u a tabung call u save money wakakaka~!
We next year buy more expensive de ball giv u ^^v~!

They sing Hpy bday song for me and mun kiet in front of the class lol...dun do this again..me this weirdo dun deserve it lolz..=.=...

Haha second gift~!Thx my best fren Lum lolz~! xD..he gave me a mooncake...the decoration of the box is exclusive~!Inside...not mooncake is 2 shirts LOL~!..He RaWkS~!

Well,a birthday withouht cakes and candles is still amazing^^

Thx Ya Guys~!

Stop Blogging Awhile~

2008-07-20T14:14:00.001+08:00

I stop blogging for awhile bah due to my com broke down lol..T.T..

sighs..-.-..

2008-07-03T22:11:00.002+08:00

Designing header was fun lol...tiring too x.x...once the measurement are wrong u gonna do it again x.x...lol wasted my time last night for designing xD hahax wan thx tsu ann find the pic for the design lol xD she hav high taste in arts since she dreaming of being a cartoonist when she grow up^^ +u+u lol..(yesterday me kena marah teruk teruk cause her taste too high in art..=_="..T_T..)..lol go my school de blog 1 week 1 time a starting from sunday xD u guys gonna see some nice header lolz..if there no title or description on the header..the header damn nice x.x.. too bad lolz..now i just nid to adjust the quality and the size =.=''...

2008-07-01T23:48:00.002+08:00

hahax..today i didnt know should i be happy o not xD...todays a weird day for me lolz..hahax..didnt play basketball for 3 weeks at school x.x...today i play back..form 2 fight with form 1 de..we form 2 LOSE liao~ T_T...hmm...today got ppl drop class...lucky not me -.-''.....today we promoting for our school's blog =x all lai lai come visit http://tscassociation.blogspot.com ~~~~giv some support a^^ well giv some comment about the graphics too lol cause i designing those graphics >< comments needed^^...lol too many things happen today lazy write liao^^

28 June~!

2008-06-28T20:56:00.005+08:00

Suddenly got horns =.=''

Hahax~! my dai lou and dai sou~^^..lol guess which 1 is me lai de =x

lol it rly worth it xD

see that paper? our class de organization chart not same de..we use film de format =x director.producer,co-producer,script writer,AH-LONG (LOLxD),Props,Graphics,Stylist,Guard

Friendship^^

2008-06-28T18:40:00.003+08:00

Friendship are not meant to be betrayed..
Sometimes I didnt meant to be nuisance..
I was just trying to cheer you up..
If I bothered you..
I am sorry..

remember those days..
those days we have fun and joy together..
I feel that i have everything when i with u guys..
If i hurted you..
I am sorry..

Sometimes we quarreled..
quarreled about some small problems..
I feel guilty..
If i upseted you..
I am sorry..

Although it is too late..
Too late to save our friendship..
Too late to say anything..
I still wanna say..
I am sorry..

Scared me o.o...

2008-06-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

Today at school lol..we were decorating the classes for this coming saturday...we were busy all day long..lol we were all last minutes xD.the class looks so horrible..the board was worn out =x and those crappy things sticking on the wall...well some of us didnt attend for history class =x our classmate told the teacher tat we were in the class decorating lol...teacher didnt accept and giv us penalty points x.x...we recieve the news and me and lum go ask the teacher~...the teacher call us go back class and cut the name in the book lol...at last lum go cut of the name in the book xD...i took the book and go ask the teacher for signature.the teacher say.."who call u cut it off"...then i was like.."WTF"...and then i say.."hey,teacher isnt it u are the 1 calling us to cut it off?".The teacher silenced herself for awhile and then she pinched me and say if we do this again she giving us double penalty =x(yikes~!)(if double penalty normal student 5p x2= 10p ...if prefect 5p x4 ..if it wasnt cut off i get 20p LOL!).........

at the night before tuition starts...it rly drive me crazy lol...need to buy bahan for those class thingy...i gone to The Store...i searched for light blue poster colour,thumbtack and sugar paper..i searched for it..do u believe it a supermarket didnt sell those things =.=......i ran to the bookshop lol..they sell all the things i needed =D...well they doesnt have light blue and i called tsu ann she call me buy grey...SHEESH..THE PRICE WAS PRETTY HIGH~! X.x...lucky i can claim it with my class's AH LONG =x (dun tell syahirah i dun wanna die~)...

it wasnt finished yet..i gone back to the tuition centre..studied for awhile..suddenly tsu ann sms me >>> ""Wei buy other colour..our background is black la..""....oh great...i nid to run out again and change the colour =.=""....at last i changed to purple colour...right after i step out of the bookshop...Siew sms to me >>> ""An,when u come back tuition scream loudly so someone can open the door""......then i was like.."OMG"..lol...today i was shocked for twice..T_T..

Wrote under a sorrow feeling T_T...

2008-06-25T20:33:00.004+08:00

Another sleepless night, I stay awake...
Dreaming myself near to a dreamy lake...
Love is blind...
A trust is all we need to bind...

Although we lost our trust...
A farewell bid isnt a must...
We were chilidish for all these time...
it is not a reason to leave us behind...

These few weeks...
An answer is all I seeks..
At last I accomplished..
The decision was selfish..

I rather being hated..
Then being suffocated..
Thats the way i protect you..
The way i love you...

I sacrificed my feelings...
To save your feelings...
Be honest to yourself once more...
And choose the one that suits you more...

This long i taught it was one sided ..
I couldnt believe it was replied..
One thing I need to say before I end this rhyme...
If you truly love me,prove it in no time...

25 June..Hate It!

2008-06-25T02:09:00.000+08:00

today midnight i hate it..it make me say the thing i hate to say...lol...anything life goes on..finished something with my bare hands..